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God is at my heels

Have you ever had the sensation that life is very very dense? So dense that it is utterly overwhelming. But we only ever remember these razor thin pieces. We string together a handful of these pieces, what could hardly be called a shard, and adorn ourselves in them. Calling them *ME*. These 5, 7, 22, maybe 400 razor thin moments. They seem to rise about the density of our lives and look down in the rest of our life. They judge them, embrace some, discard others, and bury anything that contradicts them. All of these moments are equal though. No moment can stand above the rest. To experience _that_ is to experience nirvana and to become a Saint is to live undistracted from inside that knowledge.  Living that density reveals the game at play here in this world. The charade. The joke. You become a Holy Fool. Until then, this handful of shards with a fishing line through them called ME; This necklace, more accurately - this noose, decides what each memory means, what can be discarded, ...

Masks

Despite the way our culture, media, and friends may speak about our individual and collective behaviors we know that we have sinned against God; we even know that the volume and severity of these transgressions is utterly overwhelming. For many there is no conscious understanding of this reality, but we can see that even those whose moral senses are dulled, or their moral education lacking know the severity of their transgressions. We can see this by observing what they avoid and what actions they take. First and foremost we are unwilling, or perhaps even unable, to consciously (not only in the mind but also in the heart) admit to ourselves the offenses we've committed, the attachments that have fueled these offences and the actions that have chauffeured us into these sins so willingly. We put a mask over our hearts in a futile attempt to trick ourselves and God into believing that we have done no wrong. We are unwilling to remove that mask from our hearts and reveal to ourselves w...